Spring, 2009

we are two weeks into the NEW quarter already (although it already feels like a lifetime, and honestly, that has a lot to do with a million things on my mind.) 

how i wish i had a brain that was somewhat passive, that lived in the moment, that wasn't in a constant struggle with occurances of the moments long history, or the fear of whats up with the time ahead. 

how i wish i did not have a brain.

(but) if i did NOT have a brain, how would i work for the tonne of stuff that require my attention this school quarter? 

i need help, i need magic, i need both.